In a dark room,
we will undoubtedly see the dark. It’s unwelcoming, unsettling, uneasy and unknown, because so rare do people explore the dark. But once there, we wallow in it because we, as humans, have a weird knack of seeping in our own darkness. For that I say, “that’s why man invented flashlights.” Because in a dark room, we swing this tool around to look for the light switch so that we can rid ourselves of darkness and see that the once dark room, wasn’t all that bad once illuminated.
There are so many negatives in life. So many. It can be easy to focus on them since we are living in such prosperity, and we are constantly reminded of how little we have when we look around and see how much more the next person has. School, work, relationships are all piled under social constructs of perfection in beliefs that if you aren’t succeeding in any of the 3, you are deemed a failure by those around you or close to you. We are taught that growing up, and I never realized how unfair it was until a couple of days ago a student took her life, in the most unceremonious of ways. It was as unfortunate as it was unbelievable. I was devastated. It hurt even more to find out a day later that the anonymous body was my friend’s good friend. With grief in my heart, I tried to console him but I was at a loss for words. It’s a shame, because suicide are just these social constructs manifested physically once they aren’t met. In a dark room, she focused her light not towards finding the light switch but away from it, because she felt she’ll never find it. So in darkness she stayed until finally she couldn’t take it. That thought alone, just gets to me. Seeing her pool of blood on the floor will never leave my mind. Until a day ago, I didn’t have a mental picture of the victim. Now all I see, is a young woman, smiling; and me hoping that that smile was genuine.
Through her, however, I learned the importance of perspective. How can I ever have another bad day and complain about it ? From today until the end of my life, I’ll try my hardest not to complain. Rather, I’ll take my lesson from this day on and see that whatever I’m going through, I’m going to get through it. Time will test me, this I’ve accepted. I’m just hoping the more time I see, the lighter the dark gets.
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